Adieu, March!

Yesterday was one of the historical days of my life! I had dinner at home! Surprisingly, for more than a month, I haven’t had dinner at home. Some of my friends envy my busy life, but others, especially my family, worry everyday for that it could ruin my health. Until last year, I didn’t really realize whether my life was busy or even harsh. However, having spent busy and dynamic months, I could feel every part of my body crying for rest. And yesterday, my brain couldn’t take it anymore. The parts of my body, including fingers, eyes, legs and many more, finally went on strike and were resisting against the brain, the commander, that they won’t work anymore. Now that I have made a compromise with them by giving them home food and early sleep, I would like to sum up the occasions of March.

Since I was very young, I have found it important to put meanings on to even slightest changes in life. For instance, summing up and reflecting on the past; I believe this action could actually bring improvements in the future. Today is already the very last day of March. Not only because my birthday is in this month, for many other reasons has March always been the most eventful month of the year, especially this march of the year 2011.

Most of all, the lessons begin! It is amazing, sometimes, to realize how quickly people forget things. Despite the fact that I took a break last semester, as I have kept on studying and as that it was only for one semester, I thought that everything would be perfectly normal and same as any other semesters I had. However, attending lessons was totally different to just being busy and studying alone. Even though I had spent more hours on self-studying in the break semester than lessons I have now, my body never showed any signs of tiredness, but nowadays, it can barely stay still for even one hour. Similar to “Monday syndrome,” I’m figuring that there’s also “March syndrome.”

Moreover, my birthday is in March! Having met on 12^th March, after 4 years of dating, my parents got married also on 12^th March. My mother once told me that not on purposely, but that I was also due to be born on 12^th March! Nevertheless, maybe I had wanted to celebrate my birthday separately from my parents’ wedding anniversary, I was born more than a week later, on 23^rd March. Until primary school time, having a birthday party was even more important than getting presents on Christmas day; which I now find useless and waste of time and money. However, thanks to my friends, this year was quite special. My friends at the play somehow found out that it was my birthday and gave a small surprise party during the rehearsals, which made my cry of happiness. There’s a saying in Korea that one should give presents to their parents on his or her birthday, for they gave birth to him or her. I always had this in my mind, but couldn’t put it into action; always making excuses that “I am busy.” Wait mom and dad for next year! :)

 

Furthermore, my job as an “actress” is now ended. I now feel really relieved and sad of the fact that the play is over. It is true that I have suffered a great deal spending all my power and time on rehearsing. I remember saying to my mom every morning, that I just want it to be over and done with, and that I won’t even miss it later. However, now that it’s really ended, I miss it a lot and I still makes me frustrated that I couldn’t give my full on the last performance day, for that I was really ill. The reason I had auditioned for this and endured it was because I knew that unless I decide to become an actress that there won’t be any more chances like this in my life. It sure was tough, but I really don’t regret it!

April is coming. Winter is now going. Some people mourn that their life is always just the same. When I listen to these people, I always think to myself that every second in one’s life is different. “Schedule” is not “life!” It seems to me that some people mistaken their schedule as their life and grieve that their life is same everyday. 31^st March 2011 can exist only once in everyone’s life. Carpe Diem!